Tuesday, June 05, 2007

The Fighting Spirit.


Yesterday was Sunday and so I was all in a mood to rest at home for a day. My favorite day of the week! Being lazy – reading newspapers, watching television and if possible going out for a movie (once in a while!) – that’s what I do on Sunday. No pressure and nobody to command you or your schedules, Makes me feel as if I am the king of my life. Else during working days we are just dogs where we have no right to use even a minute of our life for ourselves; we are the slaves of clock and time.

Anyway, so the day started sleepily. I was reading all time favorite – Sunday Times when I read two articles which made me little disturbed or rather made me think of personalities that get built because of different experiences we face in life. And of course made me analyze myself.

One article was on – Rakhi Sawant in the supplement – Times Life
I was reading the article when I felt very bad for Rakhi Sawant. During her childhood she had to face many things – Broken relationships, slum locality (and hence the attitude of the people around) and so on. But she had the zeal to overcome it. I have seen very few people who actually want to overcome the problems in their lives. Rather they prefer to blame to those problems so as not to accept the responsibility of being cowards. Anyway, but she accepted the responsibility and went ahead. Now she is earning well on which her family is also surviving. As I was reading her interview, I felt proud for her that she struggled. She sorted out the ways and means by which she can earn.
I have seen her on screen and she is very motormouth, gimmicky and diplomatic. But why is she really like that? At one point of time in life she would also have been desperate to live her life happily. She would have also been willing to live life ordinarily but failed to do so. She also would have dreamt of her life partner, Prince Charly, but the society and the practical facts of life never allowed her to accomplish it. But still a part of her is ordinary and simple, she wants to live life at its fullest but now no feelings for romance and relationship.

But why has she actually become like this and is there anybody in the world who can really understand her? She has become like this because of the experiences she had to face and because of the hard times she had to suffer. Can anyone really understand the basic blocks that built her personality?
Its not only Rakhi Sawant – there are many such personalities in the world. Rakhi Sawant is famous because of what she does and also because she in on screen. There many other gals who have chosen some other means of earning by way of completing education and starting their career and finding good jobs.

When you suffer in life for money, society barriers during your childhood, it hurts. The hurt then converts into scars and you carry those scars in your heart for the life long. Even after your struggling period has ended, these scars remain as an edge of your personality and reflect from your day today activities through your attitude. But then you gain the confidence that you have overcome it and gain the confidence that even if life shows it again – you can stand. It gives you the entity in the world.


But again, I was reading another article
– I was reading an article – The Bandit Pride – Daughter of Veerappan – Vidya Rani. She had recently passed SSC examination with good marks. It’s an achievement and she has to be given credit for that. But what about her personality? She had seen cops being inhuman and insane with her mother. Her mother cannot actually stand continuously for 5 mins now. Every time she had been denied to get an admission in the schools, She had to change the schools, she had always been a center of attention and I ask why and what for? Was it her fault of being a daughter of Veerappan? Situations may differ. Rakhi Sawant faced something else and she has become like that – moofat – Bindhaast (may be she went to an extreme end of life) and now – Vidya Rani. I learnt that she is introvert and shy. But these experiences definitely going to affect her personality while she is growing. Of course they will be positive – as she will have courage to face anything that the life might give her way and she has yet traveled half a distance of her life.
But I am worried – how she will handle it now? This is the start and she has to travel miles yet. I don’t know how her personality will grow – but I would like to see her being aggressive rather than being introvert – I am worried. I would like to see her over coming all the barriers in life and gaining that confidence, the zeal to go ahead and stand – yes she has overcome one. But there are many like this to come her way.

Rakhi Sawant – an extreme end of a personality, the personalities of all those gals who have got stable after over coming their respective struggles and Vidya Rani the one going to come up with something else.
But I think one thing will be common in all those who have been succeeded to overcome the barriers of childhood struggle for money, family responsibilities & society is – the fighting spirit. And yes, the way Rakhi says and the way I agreed to it, one day Vidya will also say –
“ But I don't regret it since I am what I am today because of those circumstances “

Monday, May 21, 2007

Aamachi Mumbai

Finally shifted to Mumbai! ‘Aamachi Mumbai’ – true spirit of life.
Something that I felt after I came here – the song – very similar to Mumbai spirit –

Nadeeyaa chale chale re dhaaraa,
Chanda chale chale re taaraa…. Tujhako chalnaa hogaa..
Tujhako chalana hogaa.

Jeevan kahee bhi thaherataa nahi hai,
Andhi se tufaan se darataa nahee hai
Tu nnaa chalegaa to chal degi raahe… Manjil ko tarsegi teri nigaahe..
Tujhako chalna hogaa..

Paar hua wo rahaa jo safar me
Jo bhi rukaa fir gayaa wo bhanvar me
Naav to kyaa bahejaaye kinaaraa… Badihi tej samay ki hai dhaaraa
Tujhako chalnaa hogaa…


3 cheers to the spirit of Mumbai!!!

I have shifted to Mumbai. Liked Mumbai life. It is good over here. People are very supportive and easy going. They don’t really interfere in ur life at the same time help u whenever needed. They understand the situations u might be going through. Now I understood what the Mumbai spirit means. Am happy to be one of them now!!

Nothing new. Joined office. We are a small but nice team. All are young and simple. Got adjusted very easily.

About Job, it’s better not to comment so early. Still trying to keep my morals & hopes high and waiting for something good to happen. (May be salary!! ;-) )

Hang on with me till the next post comes! :-)

Monday, April 02, 2007

Experience in MNC after Placing Resignation.

Me : “ So now you know, I want to resign, my decision is firm”

She : “ Well, if you have decided then I can’t comment anything. Even after telling you all these things also if u want to resign I wld only say All The Best to u. But then search a guy who stays in Bombay and don’t look guys here in Pune for marriage."
(What? did I hear the right words? What crap!! In the middle of resignation letter discussion, such topic can also come? Well – here in this place you can’t say anything. U only need to listen to all sorts of crap things coming your way.)

Me : “ Ye, u r rite. Will do accordingly. I will convey this message to my parents.”

She : “ No, tell them today itself”

Me : “ Yes, will do.”

And some wild guesses those came out at a very instance when I put my letter on the desk –
1. “ R u getting married?”
(Though I had written clearly the cause as – ‘for better opportunities’ )

2. “ I know you are placing resignation because you have Boy Friend in Bombay”
(Well, people all around me in the office including she, know that my parents are searching groom for me n above question was asked before this one!!!)

3. “ Don’t search groom in Pune now” (As if I will commit a serious crime if I search groom from Pune!! May be I ll get death sentence – hang till death!! )

Can you imagine these kind of questions being asked in an MNC # 2 in fortune 500 when it comes to rank? I am missing the great Mr. Thomas Alva Edison who while starting this firm would have had many dreams associated with it and then Mr. Jack Welch who had worked hard and always had Employee benefits at the priority.

In all, after every thing said and done for an hour, as the ego was hurt, no one wanted to stop me saying we need you but rather wanted me to stay back showing how wrong my decision was. Not only this but many other aspects were also discussed – which were no way related to my career & reason to leave!!! What an organisation!! I think They didn't even understand the importance of career. They being an MNC considered that no one can actually leave them for career purpose cause there would not be anything better than this place when it comes to comparison. How immature people who consider themselves at senior level support to organization!!! I have pity on them.

This was the reason for me to leave this place. I didn’t find intellectual people here who would actually have ever thought of the things maturely. They were just that – egoistic & selfish and interested in gossiping.
I used to stay isolated from these people because I never found the topic which could be discussed with them on intellectual level.
Rather the topics which they used to discuss were something like - "Have u seen blah blah blah heroin of that serial - she was looking very cute yesterday." or something like : "Hey.. I missed that serial - what happened yesterday, did she kill him? "

Anyway, Why am I discussing these things here? But wanted to express this irritation somewhere.

And finally, I have been given loads of work which I need to complete by today itself. I am in no mood to work. And why should I really? This is just that – I can’t tolerate it anymore!!
But good – this has made me more focused and determined towards my decision to leave. Nothing can stop me from leaving this place now. I had lost the faith earlier only but I have lost the respect as well….